A few years
ago I had a rather ridiculous accident that has provided me much metaphorical use. The short version is that I have finally been forced to give up any
lifelong dream of becoming a firefighter.
It was a
homeschooling lobby day at the state capitol—one of the best field trips ever.
My daughter had a friend who lived near Austin, where we were having dinner before
the three-hour drive home. The house happened to have a fireman’s pole, just
for fun. Sort of like the Jonas Brothers on their TV show at the time. I was
curious to see it, but I had pictured looking at it from the bottom. Instead, I
ended up following the young people up the stairs to see it from above.
I had no
interest in using the thing, even when the kids all tried it and landed quite
safely below. But my daughter incorrectly assumed I needed the "fun and exciting" experience. I was not
firm enough. I explained reasons I felt it was not safe for me to do it—and they
kept addressing my concerns, one by one. So, while I don’t know if you could
call it peer pressure, since I was an adult and should have known better, I
gave in and tried sliding down.
As my
husband said later, “You failed to do the math relating to upper body strength
versus lower body weight.” True, but probably could have gone without being said to a suffering wife. I went
down hard, about as fast as if I had just fallen. I knew immediately I’d hurt
my ankle. But at first (and for a couple of weeks) we thought it was probably
just a bad sprain. It was swollen and purple right away. I felt more than just
a little stupid for having done such a thing when I should have known better.
In my defense, I’m the first person, including adults, to have been injured on
this fireman’s pole, and they had had parties with dozens of people, young and
old, trying it out. I’m just special that way.
The thing
is, I knew immediately that I’d made a really bad decision. I even said to my
daughter, “I know what repentance is all about; I really really wish I had
never done this stupid thing.” And here’s another thing I know about myself: I
learn fairly quickly from experience. I even learn from other people’s
experience, and from reading or other forms of literature. I am not someone who
needs to learn the hard way.
Nevertheless,
I had a walking cast for two weeks, when the first x-ray showed nothing. When
it didn’t heal, I got a better x-ray with an orthopedist and learned it was
broken, in the talus joint, where it was hard to see. I didn’t have to have
surgery, fortunately, but I did have a cast that required elevation (and thus a
need for a wheelchair) for eight weeks, followed by another five weeks with a
walking boot, and several months of physical therapy. And now, almost four
years later, I’m aware that there’s some minor permanent damage.
Sometimes
the consequences for our actions need to be serious, even if we’re sure they
are too harsh.
There are
many ways this can be a metaphor for our world. But, for now, I’m thinking
economics. For many of us individually, we can see that profligate spending and
unmanageable debt will lead, at some point, to financial failure, possibly
sudden and seriously painful. If you spend money that is unsupported by wealth,
you will fall and land hard. And when you hit bottom, it might take a long time
to heal. You will lose wealth-building time, an opportunity cost, in addition.
But once you
realize you’ve hit bottom, when you feel the sudden sharp pain, you get very interested in taking the necessary care to bring about healing.
Not everyone, apparently, has that natural reaction, however. Things are made worse when someone hits bottom and thinks, “That wasn’t so
bad,” and doesn’t change behavior. Who would do that? Someone who’s drunk or
otherwise mentally impaired, maybe. Someone who can’t or won’t perceive
reality. In economic terms, someone perhaps drunk with the power of spending
other people’s money. Someone who has never been held accountable for the
reckless behavior.
The question
of our time is, how do we get the monstrously insensitive “government” to stop
spending money unsupported by wealth? To stop leaping off an economic cliff that
has already resulted in a 5-year economic malaise including at least two credit
rating downgrades?
I have seen
a few people in my life who have hit bottom—well beyond what I would consider
hitting bottom. But, for them, the gravitational crash isn’t hard enough to
convince them to change their behavior. They somehow think, “I can endure this;
it’s not that bad.” I’ve seen that happen to a loved one who went through
several attempts at alcohol rehab, lost the right to drive (re-wired the car to avoid
the breathalyzer), lost family, friends, jobs, health, and finally died of
liver failure. Nothing ever felt like a hard enough landing to permanently change
behavior. I’ve seen a friend’s child go through several years of youth rehabilitation
camp, prison, loss of family, mental institution, more rehab, and using people
who care about him to keep him off the street—and the result is still, “It’s
not that bad; I can handle it without actually changing.”
Economically speaking, what I’m
afraid of is that, what I see as already hitting bottom is considered “not
that bad” by enough people that the country as a whole moves inexorably toward
more pain—until things get so uncomfortable that finally people wake up and
say, “Oh, now I get it; we can’t keep spending like this when we don’t have it.”
The sooner the better. Repentance—turning 180 degrees to the right direction—is
hard and requires possibly a fair amount of painful rehabilitation, but is very
much preferable to more serious falls or death (bankruptcy or worse?), which is the ultimate bottom to
hit.
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